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-前记

终于要搬家。

因为重病的缘故，搬家一事耽搁了好一阵。就像身边一个人说的，没人知道我有多累。
再好的风景，看多了也会腻。于是靠在窗边默默的睡。醒来的时候，身上盖了一翻薄棉被，想必是谁。就像我的世界。不断的，有人进入。不断的，有人离开。于是看见的，看不见了。记住的，遗忘了。

走之前，翻看了很多从前的旧相片。并非电脑里的，只是些网上可以找到的。那之前，我就知道，以后的某天我会去想念。
翻到最后，进入主人的blog，读她用中英文写的这些那些。虽然她是纯亚系人，她的英文一直都很好。看到这篇，心情也不由得沮丧。

“There exists an evil side of me that expects the world to revolve only around her. This evil side seems so vicious and wants so much from everyone. It is therefore overpowered and can nearly take over me. Let me tell you what she can do. She creates arguments with my love all the time. She tries to make life difficult for both of us because she's jealous of me being myself. She's jealous of the fact that he loves me so much more and that we are always so happy together. Several times in a week I'm controlled by her. When I'm under control, she uses my body to shout, cry, kick and do whatever to just make my honey feel stressed and depressed. Sometimes she makes him cry too. She has this habit that whenever she's mad or moody, she talks bullshit to no end. She keeps talking, talking and talking until he can't take it anymore. The argument usually ends when he forces her to look at him in the eye. This is the time when I can finally come out and take control. Yes, this is her weakness. Don't ever get moody or upset, otherwise she'll manage to defeat me and the only way to defeat her is to make her feel loved. She can't bear it at all. She's used to the dark. Love is the only solution.”

那个love指的是狼。他们虽然相知相识还不到一年，却轰轰烈烈陷入了爱情深渊。
那个evil side的她，是我要用一生去挽救的灵魂。也只有我，才能平静她。

我是一个从小被她收养的孩子，这辈子，离不开她。我说的，故事远没有结束远没有开始。远没有答案，有的只是经历的回忆和写时的感悟。

这几天翻过很多从前的东西，包括一些信件，字还有声音。很多已经找不到。十年后归还的哨子粘着黄色便笺。到底有多少约定能够兑现。十年后，我们都老了。丢失起飞的心愿。
最后，去看了素不相识的人们的日记。轻描淡写，一目十行。

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-搬家